恋する乙女(ただの英日記)

I totally forgot what I was like when I have feeling for someone special.

I can’t believe I am thinking about him all day long.

Waking up in the morning, I check my phone whether or not I’ve got reply from him.

Then while I am at work, I am carrying my phone in my pocket (which I do as always), and

feel my pocket carefully to realize the vibration when I get a message.

Once my phone vibrates, I am excited to see the message next time I go to the bathroom, because we are not allowed to use cell phone at desk.

Then when the message is from him, I am excited creating message to him.

After work, I usually get a message from him, when he finishes his work.

Then I am just hoping to see him if he is not tired.

I am now trying not to fully book myself, to be able to say yes when he asks me going for a drink or something.

When I figured out that today is not the day he asks me out, I feel a little depressed.

I always expect something exciting to happen.

Here I am.

Figured out that I had to cook for myself and watch TV alone, because he is so exhausted.

I expected him to ask me for a drink or something, because he went home early today.

I wish I was very smart to judge what to say to him after work, like making him notice that I wanna see him.

All I can do now is to have blank schedule and wait.

I know this is not the right thing to do.

At least before we start dating, I want to be ready for his invitation anytime.

Ahh… I am now thinking about him again! I know he’s already fell asleep, cuz he has not read my message yet for like 3 hours LOL

こんなに自分が好きな人がいるときに変わるとは思わなかった。1か月前までは、好きな人すらおらず、
それでも毎日楽しく過ごしてた。

出会って、好きになって。考えることが彼のことばっかりになった。

ついつい、返信が遅くなったりするとへこんでしまう。

いかん。もっと自分の時間を充実させなければ。

暇すぎる女なんて、忙しい男の人からしたら重たいのだ。

失恋して好きな人ができなかった先月までは、
いろいろ勉強した。
こんどこそいろいろ生かすもん。
頑張るぞ私。

頑張れ全国の恋する乙女たち。

今日はフレーズじゃなくてすみません。
ただの心の声の掃き出しでした。

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