I totally forgot what I was like when I have feeling for someone special.
I can’t believe I am thinking about him all day long.
Waking up in the morning, I check my phone whether or not I’ve got reply from him.
Then while I am at work, I am carrying my phone in my pocket (which I do as always), and
feel my pocket carefully to realize the vibration when I get a message.
Once my phone vibrates, I am excited to see the message next time I go to the bathroom, because we are not allowed to use cell phone at desk.
Then when the message is from him, I am excited creating message to him.
After work, I usually get a message from him, when he finishes his work.
Then I am just hoping to see him if he is not tired.
I am now trying not to fully book myself, to be able to say yes when he asks me going for a drink or something.
When I figured out that today is not the day he asks me out, I feel a little depressed.
I always expect something exciting to happen.
Here I am.
Figured out that I had to cook for myself and watch TV alone, because he is so exhausted.
I expected him to ask me for a drink or something, because he went home early today.
I wish I was very smart to judge what to say to him after work, like making him notice that I wanna see him.
All I can do now is to have blank schedule and wait.
I know this is not the right thing to do.
At least before we start dating, I want to be ready for his invitation anytime.
Ahh… I am now thinking about him again! I know he’s already fell asleep, cuz he has not read my message yet for like 3 hours LOL